I have been with my fiancé for almost 2 years now and I have just come to the realization that, at the very least, I’m unfulfilled and need to work on my mental health. I don’t feel able to prioritize my mental health while still being with him, so I know I need to leave for myself and my mental well-being.
I have tried to end things before, leaving him almost hysterical, panicked and distraught, only to wimp out and stay when he wouldn’t calm down or be reasoned with.
I have just recently told my mother the extent of my depression and relationship troubles, and plan to tell my closer extended family and best friend. I had, up until now, been covering up our bad relationship and obscuring the facts from those I care about, but it’s too taxing to lie to everyone I care about, and myself.
My current plan is to tell him next Thursday that I am breaking up with him. We live with my relatives so they will be informed and able to intervene or drive him home/to a friends house if need be. He can have Friday to pack up and my family will take him away that weekend.
I wish I felt safe enough to do it by myself but I worry about him hurting himself, me, or our dog, so I would most likely be gone Thursday night with my dog at my moms house.
I guess I’m just looking for some advice, words of wisdom, and information on how to proceed while respecting both him & myself.
TL;DR: I want to leave my relationship and need to know how to find the inner strength to do so. I need to convince myself I deserve to be happy.
Submitted March 19, 2021 at 06:05PM by doigothrowaway https://ift.tt/3vIjRYu
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