Before everything else, I need to say that I am VERY insecure of how I look. How can I not? I’m 5’2”, 165 pounds. I don’t even look in the mirror sometimes. He knows this.
Moving along,
We met through dating apps. Right now we’ve been in a relationship for around 3 months. Last night we talked and it got to him asking the reason I chose him. So naturally, after answering, I ask him back. This took a few minutes of silence before he said, “I’m going to be honest with you. I was a very superficial guy. When I tried to find a partner, I prioritize their looks over anything else. Before we met, we have been talking a lot. And it’s true when I say you make me feel safe, and comfortable. It was like, I finally found someone right. But when we first met, I can’t help but to think you were really not my type, physically. I wasn’t attracted to you. And it felt like a big slap on my face. It felt like the universe was playing with me. As if it said, ‘I gave you this woman that have every quality you ever want in a partner. You admire everything about her, except her appearance. Will you abandon it all in search for someone prettier?’ And after that first date, I went home. And I got to think. And I realize there was really nothing to think of. Because I want you. Despite how you look. Right then and there I realized I want you to be in my future. I want me to be your future. And now I’m here, having the privilege of being the luckiest guy in the world because I found you.”
I really doesn’t know what to think, or even what to do. Right now I can’t even believe him when he told me he loves me. And every time I passes by a mirror, all I can think of is that my boyfriend doesn’t like the way I look. I can’t help but look away every time he looks at me because all I can think about is, “I’m ugly”.
I really don’t know how to move forward. I told him how I felt and he told me that he is sorry for feeling that way in the past. He said he’s changed, that I changed him. That he no longer cares about all that and that he loves me. I don’t even know if all that is true.
Should I just try and move on? Should I stay? Should I believe him? Can men even put aside looks? I’ll take any advice/thoughts you have. I really, really don’t know how to act.
Tldr: my bf told my insecure ass he loves me but he doesn’t find me physically attractive but it doesn’t matter because he loves me.
Submitted October 11, 2021 at 03:09AM by surfwave76 https://ift.tt/3ACeo76
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