I know it sounds like your average self-hating, self-pitying post, and those may be partly where this comes from BUT there is a real chance that Im really too stupid for a relationship. Or, well stupid is not the best word here, my intelligence is pretty average, but when it comes to people, Im lost.
Usually I have nothing to say, I just listen and watch. And when people tell me something a bit deeper than your aware weather talk, my brain can't give a better answer than "uhm". I always have to think about it for hours until I can come up with something that sounds at least a bit tought through. But by then, it becomes so convoluted, complicated and detached from really that its basically worthless. And it breaks my heart every time when my friends face a bit more complicated problems, and they tell them to me. Because it doesn't matter how hard I try my brain just freezes and I can't give a normal answer advice that would actually help them.
But when I listen to my friends talking, they are so fast and well spoken and wise(?) They work like how real human beings. I just sound like a fucking monkey with my uhms.
So obviously I don't want to start dating yet until I solve this and other problems, but Im 19 now, and it looks like this will go away by age. I gonna have to work on it, if its even possible. So, does anyone know what could this be? Maybe some mental fuckery I did to myself, or illness? Or , what im really worried about, is it possible to simply be useless in people stuff?
Maybe you can already see from this post that.. well it feels like a mess. And this took more than 1 hour to write and its doesn't even feel like this is everything I would like to, or should tell to make this understandable.
TLDR:
Problem: My brain doesn't work when it comes to human stuff. I can't be helpfull. Question: Need help solving this, so what could this be?
Age/gender: 19/male
Ps.: English is my second language, and someone stole the spell checker from my phone, so forgive the crappy grammar.
Submitted October 11, 2021 at 10:24AM by Th0waway1245 https://ift.tt/3lwoDW7
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