I don’t know whether or not to stay in my relationship that is reliable and happy but not passionate.

Me (22 F) and my boyfriend Alex (21 M) have been dating for about a year and a half. I really love him and consider him to be one of my closest friends. It’s both of our first serious relationship and love. I hadn’t had many doubts about the relationship which has been for the most part very happy with no fighting until I met a friend of a friend, River (22 M) last weekend. I was instantly attracted to him in a way that I never really experienced the same way with Alex. They are both attractive but there was something about River’s confidence that was so indescribably alluring. We talked all weekend and I could tell that he was attracted to me and we bonded a lot but wouldn’t make a move because he knew I was in a relationship. Nothing sexual happened and river left for his hometown which is not close to where I live and I found myself unable to stop thinking about him. There was something about our passionate immediate physical and emotional chemistry that I never really had with Alex who I feel like I love like a best friend who is a huge part of my life and I share everything with. I don’t know why I don’t feel the same way with Alex because he is a picture perfect boyfriend who does everything right. I don’t know if it’s worth sticking with the relationship even though I have the fear that I’m missing out on the fiery type of passion I might have with someone else in favor of stability and reliability. A part of me does want to be able to be with someone who I have that chemistry with but I also really don’t want to lose my best friend. What do I do?

tl:dr I don’t know if I should stay with my boyfriend who is loving and reliable but I’m not head over heels attracted to or break up with him to give myself the chance to have that passion with someone else.

Submitted October 12, 2021 at 02:27AM by lolop888 https://ift.tt/3lxQ1mL