My gf and I are high school sweethearts. We liked each other since we were 15. Officially started going out at 18. She has been training in judo since she was 15. At 19-20 yrs of age she got her black belt. She also participates in many district/national lv competition. Basically her punches pack a really heavy punch.
Two weeks ago we were doing stupid shit to each other. She tried to surprise me by ghost-punching suddenly in front of my face when I was not paying attention. I was caught unaware and froze. Her punch landed straight on my nose. I blacked out and woke up in the hospital with bandages all over my face.
Ever since then I just can't seem to trust her. I jump whenever she comes in my peripheral vision. I told her that I will sleep in a different room cause I wanted to have a bit more space in bed till my head is healed. Reality is that I am terrified of sleeping with her cause I feel like she might accidentally hit me in her sleep.
Yesterday she asked me if I wante to have sex then she will ride me and I can lay down and take it easy. As of right now I am really uncomfortable with the idea of doing anything with her.
Therapy is not an option for me. The law in our country doesn't consider therapy as mainstream medical service so I will get a bigger trauma paying for that shit. I haven't yet told my gf that I am afraid of her. She already cried her eyes out and paid for my treatment and I don't want her to feel more shitty.
So any good advice will be appreciated.
Tldr: athelete gf accidentally knocked my lights out and now I am scared of her
Submitted August 03, 2021 at 02:03AM by throwaway355366 https://ift.tt/3rOKRUT
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