I (17F) feel like my relationship is getting in the way of my own personal life and goals. Should I break up with my boyfriend (17M)?

I've been with my boyfriend for nearly a year now. But I feel like our relationship has been getting in the way of my own life and I'm starting to realize I'm sacrificing too much for him. I've been helping him draw for his DeviantArt page because he doesn't know how to draw but wants to make his stories into comics and stuff so I offered to help. In the end I ended drawing almost everyday for him and I'm starting to regret it because my busy schedule is almost wrecked because of him. No one knows I'm actually drawing for him and everyone who saw the art thought he was the one who drew everything. He said he did feel guilty that he didn't even credit me but then I didn't want him to feel bad so I told him it's fine. So that part is partially my fault.

And he always seems to avoid serious talk. He never wants to talk things through. And he wants me to change and be more open minded about things like porn. But I'm not comfortable with porn and he knows that. I had to adjust myself and change myself a bit for him. I feel like I had to completely change myself and schedule for him.

He lives in another country so our time differences are also a problem. I used to sleep by 11:30 or 10pm but when I met him I now sleep at 3 in the morning. Because he always seems so disappointed when it's time for me to sleep and I always feel so guilty about that. He is a nice person and I don't want to hurt his feelings. So I push my own feelings and goals aside just for him. I'm starting to have second thoughts in our relationship but I'm not sure if I want to. I do want to talk this through with him but he keeps avoid serious topics. Should I break up with him?

TLDR: My relationship is still secret so my family doesn't know about my boyfriend yet.

Submitted August 26, 2021 at 08:09PM by WhiteLies8237 https://ift.tt/2WoraYQ