My (26F) fiancé (27F) gave my COVID three months ago, after lying to me about going out. I’m struggling with feelings of resentment.

*me

For context, I’m 26 and he’s 27. We’ve been together for five years and currently live together. Months ago, he told me he was going to see a friend. One friend. He assured me that the friend had been quarantining this whole time. I begged him not to go anyway, but I can’t exactly control his movements. I was really anxious because he has asthma and I have a mild heart condition.

He lied to me, and went to a party with about a dozen people. One of them had COVID.

Though both of our cases were mild at first, and he fully recovered, I’m still having symptoms, and some of them are scary. I have heart palpitations and I’m constantly so fatigued that I sleep at least 15 hours a day, some days. I also get winded so easily now, and haven’t been able to work out since we got it.

I’m angry. I told him when I first got it that I forgave him and he felt horrible, especially for lying, but I’m really still angry.

Besides this, he’s mostly an excellent partner and I love him very much. We get along great and he’s been very supportive of me while the illness has lingered. I also acknowledge that he had no way of knowing that someone at that gathering was COVID positive, but still, he lied to me. And he shouldn’t have gone.

Now (not to be dramatic) I might have permanent damage from it. Also, his attitude lately hasn’t been helping. He keeps telling me to just “get up and get over it” because he doesn’t believe that I’m tired, I guess? He does my share of the chores most days, and cooks for me a lot, but his little comments really hurt.

How do I deal with this? How do I talk to him about it without attacking him? There’s nothing he can do about it now so I feel silly for even thinking about it still. But I’m pissed that I did everything right (stayed at home, haven’t seen my family in months, etc) and still got this fucking virus because of his selfishness.

By the way, this is starting to affect my career. I’m a professor hoping for tenure some day and the virus aligned directly with a pretty important semester— I’m sure my course evals have tanked this semester because I can hardly stay awake.

TLDR: fiancé gave me covid after lying about going to a party; I still have symptoms three months later and I’m angry

Submitted December 01, 2020 at 08:51PM by spoopyhsbsbbs https://ift.tt/3qu67hE