I will try to set the context here but keep it simple. I met my wife when i was 16 in highschool and dated on and off until we met back up when i was 25. We got engaged then and married 14 years ago. As soon as we got married we both wanted a family so we got busy. Now we have two wonderful children.
Over 14 years our personal lives have went in opposite directions. My wife has a BM degree and I am highschool educated. Soon before we married I was gifted half of a struggling business. Since then I have brought the business into profit and purchased the other half. This business has bought us a home, cars, boats, etc. We have been able to afford anything we can dream of while still staying humble.
My wife decided after child birth that she wanted to be a stay at home mom. Being my lover and best friend I agreed to carry the weight. That didn't work so she took a job as an educator. It pays really crappy but she loved it. Life is about doing what you love right.
Fast forward to now and things are shitty. This started three years ago when her mom passed of cancer. I have tried to be her rock but she pulls away. All of the things we enjoyed, she avoids. Before you ask, we have been to 3 counselors and she also goes to a psychiatrist. She has depression with anxiety and is currently on Prozac for about 2 months.
On the last day of June it got bad. I came home and she was asleep on the couch again. She had been sleeping on the couch for a week but I was done. I told her I didn't want to keep doing this. I told her to get help but she said no, she would leave. She left on June 1st to stay with her father and we agreed to talk in 2-3 weeks.
When we talked she broke my heart. She said she no longer feels love for me, that she resents me for being successful, and the worst was that she was no longer attracted to me. Being hurt I asked that we call it and file our divorce and she agreed.
We talked the next day and she asked for more time to think before the big decision and i agreed. Since then I have got txt saying its done and txt saying I love you. We met Friday and talked for 3 hours. She said she felt a weight lifted when she moved out and she didn't miss me. Tonight I got a txt that she loved and missed me.
Communication hasn't broken down between us. She has aired her feelings but i have kept mine to myself.
I feel if I am loosing my lover and best friend in this world to a mental breakdown. I wish she would just end this because i can't bring myself to give up on her or this. Maybe I should.
TL;DR Loosing my lover and best friend. Not sure what to do.
Submitted August 02, 2021 at 09:43PM by TNhootnanny https://ift.tt/3A4JtAf
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