My friend (26F) lied to Me (17F) about her age and I feel really weird about it, help?

Hello so, I have an online friend, I’ve known her for about 3 months and our friendship was really amazing. When we first meet she told me she was 19 years old, so I always thought she was around my age since I’m 17. We started growing close by talking to each other everyday and playing video games together, I slowly developed a crush on her. I told her sensitive things about myself and she has told me sensitive things about herself. She even showed me pictures of her and I know what her voice sounds like. She sometimes would bring up sexual situations involving us two which I just thought she was playing around and everything was fine since she was my age. Everything really was great until now.

Today she asked me “Hey what if you’re actually lying about your age?” And I told her, no I’m not lying, I’m the same 17 year old you know lol. Then she said to me “Haha and I’m also the same 26 year old you know.”

In that moment, I thought she was joking, knowing she always told me she had 19 and was around my age. But then she told me she was serious and that she truly is 26 years old of age. In that moment it dawned upon me I was crushing on a woman 9 years older than me and that very same woman had brought up sexual situations involving me. Is that normal? Should I be concerned? I’m extremely weirded out by this and weirded out that I feel in love with a full grown adult.

I don‘t know what to do and I feel betrayed by this, what if she has lied about other things too? But at the same time I don’t want to lose her, she has been a great friend in my life and has helped me with many things. I’m important in her life and she’s important to me too.

After she said to me her real age I ghosted her because I don’t know what to do. What should I do? I’m extremely conflicted and weirded out by this.

TL’DR:
My online friend that I was really close to lied about her age, hinted sexual situations towards me, I feel uncomfortable and I don’t know what to do.

Submitted July 19, 2020 at 10:08PM by Alligarto https://ift.tt/2DSksQW