I'm 27 (m) with 2 combat tours under my belt and I was physically/mentally abused for most of my childhood by both my parents. My (27f) fianceé, is the most loving, smart, beautiful, and caring person I've ever met.
Lately I've been having trauma flashbacks, terrible anxiety, and down right just grumpy attitude when I get home from work. I've been diagnosed with ptsd and ADHD (fueled by the ptsd/anxiety). I had everything under control in the early stages of our relationship. I had no real responsibilities, I just worked, hung out with my friends, and drank. Now I have a small farm, a fiancee, farm animals, two dogs, two cats, and an actual career. In result my mental health issues are out of control and I accidently take alot of it out on my fiancee.
I don't yell at her or beat her or anything like that. I snap at her and get annoyed easily, sympathy is not an easy thing for me, so I fake it. I pick fights with her and immediately feel guilty and apologize. During the next few months I'll have to take alot of days off for treatment, so she'll have to take on alot of the financial burden. I just feel like I'm hurting her and that she didn't sign up to take care of a man with ptsd issues.
Should I break up with her, so she can move on and have a good happy life with someone who can fill all her emotional needs? Rather then having some anxiety riddled, grumpy dude around?
TL;DR I have ptsd/anxiety disorder and I feel like I'm ruining my fiancee life. Should I end it with her?
Submitted March 31, 2019 at 05:30PM by strandedinhere https://ift.tt/2ODajJt
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