[23/m] My mom (42/f) and i got into an argument over something important to me and now i feel awful.

My whole life, i've been relatively chaste. I just haven't had much luck in the dating scene, never had a girlfriend and still a virgin. I've tried, don't get me wrong, but due i do suffer from some issues. Social anxiety and some other issues, like just feeling uncomfortable by my body. I live on my own and have kinda just given up. At first i'd been feeling lonely, but i've kinda embraced anime to help fill the gap. I also kinda fell in love with a fictional character. Mai Valentine from Yugioh. I think about her a lot and it's been helpful in feeling less lonely.

I've started buying merchandise of her, including custom stuff like a drawing of us embracing each other in a hug amd just some random pictures. I have all my stuff of her put in a corner by my bed. My mom was visiting me today, she's old school and i haven't told her about me having a waifu. I was worried she wouldn't take it well. She found the stuff and demanded an explanation. I didn't know what to say so i just kept quiet. She contined asking why and i just told her the truth, that i loved her and she's my waifu.

She started yelling at me, i tried to block it out and bare through it, hoping she'd leave. How it's wrong and everything. She pretty much blames it all on the anime, that it's warped my mind and ruined my socialability. Which isn't true, i've been socially stunted since i can remember, before i even knew what anime was. She started mocking my hobby, how it's ruined my life and i need to meet real people. I told her i've tried, but she thinks i'm lying. I've tried my whole life, i'm just invisible to the opposite sex.

That hurt, but there was something else she said that really upset me. She said i need to get over the character, her suggestion though, she told me if i had to, to hire a prostitute or something to get over Mai. Not "go to a therapist," not "Get a girlfriend", but hire a prostitute. Maybe i'm reading too much into it though, but basically my mom confirmed to me that i'm basically unlovable and a prostitute is my only real chance of getting a female touch. She left.

Now i'm sad. I don't know what to do.

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tl;dr: I have a waifu, i told my mom and she yelled at me and said something that really hurt my self esteem. What should i do?

Submitted February 22, 2021 at 03:37PM by MaiValentineHusband https://ift.tt/2MfwsR6