Where do I start. So many emotions — feel like I will not capture them all here. We have been together for 6 years now and she’s ready to get married. The problem is that I’m very unhappy in this relationship but feel a sort of moral obligation to marry her, with the hope that matrimony will rekindle our relationship. As of now, I dread coming home everyday. Sometimes I drive around the block in circles before going inside, other times I park my car in a secluded place and drink a beer to prepare for the unhappiness of going inside.Intimacy has been close to none for the past few months. She said herself that she has been pushing me away, partly because we’re not married yet. We both feel extremely isolated and rarely share words of affection anymore. If we do, the next day it has worn off and we’re back to being annoyed with each other. Honestly, I might just say fuck it and marry her-but I would be doing it out of duty/obligation not because I think I’ll be happy.
I just want to run away sometimes.
tl;dr: I’m unhappy but still feel obligated to marry her.
Submitted July 25, 2020 at 03:59PM by LazyBoyD https://ift.tt/2BwpvWD
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