We only dated for two months and my mind was still in the adjustment and honeymoon phase. I believed he was an amazing guy who was perfect for me, but we had a few issues that we could not work out. We tried to talk them out, but we could never see eye to eye. I spoke with some of my friends and they didn’t like his behavior and told me I should break it off. Finally, I did it. I broke up with this great guy. I felt like shit afterward when I saw his face turn white and his smile melt off his face, but I’ve had time to think. I realized, that was the most unhealthy relationship I’ve ever had.
He controlled me. He told me who I could/could not talk to. He slowly stopped saying sweet thing or even touching me. He would get mad at me and not talk to me for at least a day if I ever brought up one of my issues. He would never come over to my place (I could only see him if I out the effort in). We would fight often and he would wait for me to apologize. I noticed he was getting more depressed and negative. Right before we broke up, I mentioned he should look for more positive stuff around him because I was worried about him. He said I didn’t have the right to say that because I didn’t know his life. I only said this because I knew he was depressed and he said his favorite part of work was yelling at people. He didn’t bring any positivity ever and I was becoming depressed.
When I broke up with him I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. It was freeing. I no longer had to worry about misspeaking or making him angry at me. I can be with my friends again. I’m so happy!
I wanted to post this to get it off my chest. I don’t have anyone to tell so I thought this would be a good place.
TL;DR: I was blind and didn’t realize I was in a very unhealthy relationship. I feel so free and happy. I just wanted to share my story for anyone out there who might be blind too.
Submitted March 03, 2020 at 11:59AM by jiffy12345 https://ift.tt/2vCUk8T
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