I am a reasonably attractive woman, I'm at a good weight, never been overweight in my life. I used to have a high libido, but not so much now. My man (28M) is a different story.
We have been together nearly 5 years. At first, like with anyone, we were going at it like rabbits. I wont lie, I was upset when I found out he was looking at porn. I dont agree with porn at all and it hurt that he lied and continues to lie to this day.
But it didnt stop us from having sex.
And, I learned to deal with it in my own way. I figured, I'd rather he be honest than lie. He still lies though.
Now is a different story. For the past year he struggles to stay hard. With me. He always randomly pops up with a hardon after being by himself with his phone (i.e. bathroom, etc.) And of course, it is to look at porn.
When I try to get him going it doesnt work. I am left feeling rejected, worthless, my self esteem is shot and I barely have the confidence to even flirt with him at this point.
I feel awful. Like I'm not good enough to turn him on. Like he is only using me as a tool to get off to fantasies of other women. I dont feel wanted for ME anymore. I have become angry and bitter because I have never been able to get off manually, so I am stuck with no orgasm until he wants to "use me" again. The entire feeling when we have sex is different.
He used to take his time, as did I. It would be 45 minutes to an 1 and a half minimum. With a quickie here and there.
Now it is a rush for him to finish and get me off, then get dressed and go back to what he was doing.
I just dobt know what to do. I ask him to be honest, I have mentioned the ED. He wont say anything to me about it except "dont think of me that way".
What does that even mean? He IS looking at porn. I even saw it on his phone when I was playing music on the bluetooth. I dont know why he wont help with this!
What can I do?
TL; dr: My bf has ed problems and he wont address it. He only gets hard with porn and my self esteem is withering away as a result. I feel like a used sock. I'm sexually frustrated and am resentful of him at this point because it has went on so long.
Submitted March 26, 2020 at 01:24PM by bigolmelontip1234 https://ift.tt/39oqVNH
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