Am I [18M] being self centered for being upset that my younger sister [15F] is the favorite and gets everything from my mom?

I might need to give some background info. I live with my mom and my step dad and half sister. I grew up without my dad and I actually have been homeless when I was younger so I really atruggled when I grew up because when my mom and step dad got together I lived with my uncle who sadly was killed a few years ago because he was deep into drugs and stuff like that.

My real father was like that too and I have contact with him because my mom cut him off when I was young to “protect me” even though I basically raised myself. I’ve been living with my mom now, but I am mad at how undair they treat me. Every Christmas and birthday celebration, my sister would get more.

For example, a few months ago for my 18th burthday I got nothing, not even a happy birthday. My half sister a few weeks ago got a brand new car and they are throwing her a big birthday party and I know they have spent a few thousand dollars for it. When I was 15, I didn’t get anything, not even a cake. I had to buy my own car (I’m happy I did because I drive a nice car while I save up for the car I really want) so I could easily get around to work and to school.

She doesn’t even really need it she’s barely a freshman in HS and I think this upcoming summer if things get better, she is going to get a trip to Europe with our cousin. I work 4 days a week about 10 hours a day and the other days I go to school (not right now though I am not working or going to school because of the virus thing going on) and I have to buy my own things and it has been like that since I moved with them.

I get frustrated and angry thinking about it, and my mom tries to make me feel guilty by telling me I’m too distant from the family and that I am a bad son but I am always too busy trying to pass my classes or work. She also gets mad because I’m not smart like my sister. I did good in HS, but college is hard and I am oassinf with mostly Cs and sometimes Bs. My sister is a straight A student because she only studies and goes out with her friends. (Not to mention she has an allowance of $500 a week while I have to give my parents money sometimes).

I also feel like I’m being a self centered person for thinking like this. I get frustrated and angry and have called her out on it but she says “you are different than her I raised you to be different and I love you guys the same” even though I’m pretty sure that’s a lie. What should I do? Also, am I being self centered by thinking and feeling this way?

TL;DR I am pretty sure my parents hate me by how they treat me compared to my half sister, or am I being self centered and spoiled?

Submitted March 25, 2020 at 02:54PM by yahgaha https://ift.tt/2xvgs5C