My (M21) and I (F19) got married about 2 months ago, and I already hate everything about this new life. He's a Marine, serving, and we met through friends. We agreed to get married rather quickly, which I now see is my own fault. I was pretty independent when I met him, having had my own place and a steady job. I also had friends for the first time in my life and also freedom. That's really all I had ever wanted in my life, after running away from my parents as a child. Then we got married and I moved all the way across the country to be with him. That's when everything changed. Suddenly everything mattered. Appearances and how you talked. The wives aren't supposed to be outspoken or flashy. Most of them take care of the home and have some sort of job. I agreed to be a housewife for a while until we got situated (we're staying with his best friend and his wife). It also doesn't help that I'm easily the youngest in his friend group and I have several mental and emotional problems. So I'm always self conscious and never confident like I used to be before all this. And the saddest part is that it's not his fault. He works so hard and does so much for me. He's easily the best man I've ever been with. He cares for me and buys me little gifts, always checking up with me to see if I'm mentally and emotionally okay. But he's stuck with my miserable self, all because I miss my old life. I miss my independence, and my freedom. I miss being able to make my own decisions. I miss my friends. I miss pretty much everything, in comparison to this. I don't know what to do. I don't want to take it so far as to say that I regret marrying him, but I definitely should have thought it through more. I thought I knew what I was doing but obviously I didn't.
TL;DR I got married and completely changed my life for my marriage, only to end up miserable.
Submitted September 13, 2022 at 01:55AM by No-Entrepreneur8061 https://ift.tt/NHSbjra
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