My(21f) boyfriend(24) and I have been together for about 3 years now. We had a very rocky relationship at first, has has some pretty bad anger issues, but he worked on it a lot and our relationship has been great for a while now. I stuck around because I love him a lot.
The problem comes in the past month. He has been really pushing me to do things I don’t want to to sexually. This is super embarrassing to post about. The big one is anal. We have done it before a few times and It was horrible. I don’t think I have ever been in so much pain. The last time, maybe a year ago I told him I couldn’t do it anymore and he was fine with it and understood. We have sex all of the time, he tries to get me to do it and some other stuff a lot then gets pissed when I don’t want to or asks me about it. In his mind somehow this is proof that I might be cheating on him which is ridiculous. I don’t know if he actually means it or just brings it up to try to hurt me. (Never cheated on him) and it causes us to get into arguments not related
It’s more then the sexual stuff, it makes me feel like I’m living with the old him and that behavior is going to come back. He did really good for a long time and I’m so scared it’s going to keep escalating until we are right back where we started and I really really don’t want that. I don’t know why he is acting like this over something so stupid. I just don’t get it. I’ve tried to talk to him and he basically it makes him feel like I’m not attracted to him and that girls do it all of the time. That I should want to do it for him. I’m almost at the point of just doing it so maybe we can move on, but I feel like I would hate myself for it. It’s so embarrassing I haven’t talked to anyone about it.
TLDR: boyfriend pushing me to do things sexually and then gets mad when I don’t want to
Submitted September 25, 2022 at 03:03PM by Violetsroses1 https://ift.tt/hBt5GEF
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