I [23F] hate having male roommates [27M] [28M] and I thought I’d be fine with it, but I feel self-conscious and anxious all of the time

I moved into this apartment thinking that I would be fine with having a male roommate, but I feel anxious and self-conscious all of the time.

Another male roommate is moving in, which means it will be just me and two men on the 1st floor. The two other female roommates live upstairs. My lease isn’t up until May.

I just can’t feel comfortable around men, in general. I thought having a male roommate would help, but now I feel nervous in my own home. I don’t really get along with men, most of my friends are girls and I mainly date girls.

I have OCD and a skin issue, which causes me to be in the bathroom for a fairly long amount of time. I told them to knock on the door if I’m taking too long, but it just makes me feel even more embarrassed that there’s a guy around, noticing that I take a while in the bathroom. I also hate when they see me without make-up on. I sometimes get intrusive thoughts that they could hurt me in the middle of the night, which I know would not happen.

My male roommate is really nice, considerate, and harmless, so I don’t know why I’m worried.

I’m planning on moving home for a while once I get the COVID vaccine through my job, since I’m working virtually.

TL;DR I feel uncomfortable having male roommates, but my lease isn’t up until May. How can I calm down about this so that I don’t feel anxious all of the time?

Submitted January 03, 2021 at 01:37PM by CompetitiveWasabi399 https://ift.tt/2JECqts