I’m embarrassed to admit that I have dated my Ex to the point that when someone ask- I flat out deny it.
The relationship only lasted 6 months. I was 28 and he was 37.
I broke up with my ex BF last year due to multitude of problems in the relationship, personality clash and a strikingly different lifestyle. It’s like waking up from a trance and realizing that I wasn’t attracted to him at all.
He was showing signs of being a future abuser as well: he would spread rumors about me among our mutual friends, he’ll then swoop in to appear like the person who solved it all for me, was him. He’ll create issues with my male friends (turn mutual friends) somehow he’ll have issues with them too, accuses them of being behind the person who sends me random trolling emails which started happening when I dated him, then he’ll tell me I shouldn’t talk to those friends anymore- at first I believed him but it happens to multiple male friends that made me question if his accusations are valid.
I have dated others before- and each break up had left me scarred and hurt for at least a month or two. But my break up with him is different. I didn’t cry, I felt so relieve and free, I was actually happy when I did it and I felt a feeling of disgust for ever being with him. I’m embarrassed that I’m embarrassed for dating him.
He still tells people he’s dating me even though we’re not together anymore- I’m sort of tired having to explain myself to people and just flat out denies I even knew him. I’m not sure how to make him stop.
TL;DR : embarrassed of knowing my ex and he still goes around telling people we’re together.
Submitted September 02, 2020 at 08:06AM by BeautifulMindGG https://ift.tt/32K4ktG
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