My partner and I have a hell of a lot of issues. To sum them up, too much drinking, lying constantly about drinking (and most likely other things), not helping out with our children enough and generally acting like he doesn't care about me. See my post history for more details.
We've been together for 8 years had have 2 children, aged 2 and half, and 7 weeks. I've had a long think whilst I've been visiting my family about our future, and I don't think he will ever be able to make me happy. I've given so much to the relationship without the return I want and need. I constantly feel disrespected and undervalued. I genuinely think it's the best for me and my family.
But... I feel so afraid to break up. Firstly, I genuinely feel really sad and sorry for him at the thought of it. I know it's for the best because I resent him so much, but I do love him and care about him immensely. I don't want him to be sad and feel like I'm going to break his heart.
Secondly, I have no family where we live, and my friends are very busy. I already have a tiny support network and feel isolated a lot, and it would become so much smaller. He has lived in our town for much longer than me and has so many childhood friends there. I know i would be the bad guy to so many people. I can't help feeling like I'm in a lose lose situation. I don't mean to play the victim but I just feel lost. Has anyone been in a similar advice? Does anyone have any advice as to how I can be stronger with this?
Tl;dr: I want to break up but I'm terrified of being a single mum, alone with no support. I don't want to hurt him either. Advice please.
Submitted September 01, 2020 at 12:39PM by djsiaos https://ift.tt/2DkFPKZ
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