Hi I feel like I'm stuck in juvenile mindset where I often dislike a parent of mine irrationally. I feel like I should probably be past this stage since I'm no longer a teenager so I'm seeking advice/input.
I get irritated at my dad for small things, which I know is normal when you live with someone but I'm bothered by and not sure I fully understand why. For instance I'm not comfortable sitting right next to him on the couch. The other day when he sat next to me he was drinking some instant coffee, and I don't like the smell of it and I started resenting him and the coffee smell a lot. I didn't get up straight away because I didn't want to be rude but I was waiting until what I thought was an acceptable time to leave.
I also feel like he puts up a front and that bothers me. Sometimes he puts on an unusual voice when talking to me like he's bracing himself, or otherwise uncomfortable, when saying something routine like "goodnight". I notice sometimes when he talks to strangers or on the phone he puts on an exaggeratedly animated or slightly plummy voice. I know I sound really nit picky and critical. I know what it's like not to be entirely at ease talking to people, social anxiety and whatnot, but that doesn't stop me from judging him.
I'm not sure my feelings show obviously, but I am probably a bit cold or aloof at times. I don't feel quite the same way about my mum so I don't think I fully understand where my feelings are coming from. If anyone has any input into this situation then I'd appreciate it.
TL;DR I irrationally dislike my dad, want to know how I can work on this.
Submitted March 06, 2020 at 05:42AM by berryicecreamcone https://ift.tt/38nnnLa
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