Content Warning: mentions of blood
throwaway acc (please though this is serious and I don't want the fact that this is throwaway to take away from that)
I'm in college and my sister is in a boarding school. Today she asked me to call her (calling from her hostel is regulated and only to registered 3 numbers, of which I am not one). This is a rare occurrence, she doesn't ask that of me often, only when she's extremely worried and needs to speak in confidence. We talked normally for some time until she asked me shakily if I ever had hallucinations, particularly the violent kind.
Before I go any further, here are a few things you should know. My sister is not very academically gifted, her exams are in a day. She had recently attended a compulsory camp (which is a part of academic credit) in another part of her city. I have my exams in two days too and live in a different city than her's.
She was trying very hard to maintain her composure as she detailed how she was feeling unwell 5 days ago at the camp and was asked to rest in the room assigned to her school group alone and trying to fall asleep, at which point I heard her voice get choked up and could sense her oncoming tears. She said she sees 'them' every day ever since, 5 minutes after closing her eyes and feels like she's being watched all the time. I asked her to describe what she meant by them. All she said was 'it's so bloody.'
To help her verbalize I asked her to reply with yes/no while I described things that she could've possibly seen. I asked her if she saw a mutilated body. By this point she had started sobbing, saying 'they're so many of them.' I asked how many, she said 3-4 each time, depends. I asked her if she knew any of them, and she said she doesn't, but that although they're not always the same, it almost seems like they're on rotation because she sees recurring faces once in a while. I asked her how they appear, and she said that they would always walk towards her, and on asking about the BG, she said she saw approximations of her surroundings at whatever point in time she tries to fall asleep.
Its been 5 days and she's barely had any proper rest or sleep. By this point, she's near hysterical, barely able to breathe as she talks. I asked to speak to her (few) friends (whom she's told this to) who reaffirm her story her. She goes on to ask me to not tell our parents because she doesn't want to worry them or be made out to be a liar.
I spoke (after asking her permission) to our eldest sibling (22M) who thinks she might be making this up to not give her exams because in his words, 'the (only other) alternative (to him, something supernatural) is too fucked up and horrifying to consider.'
I asked her to speak to her school counselor tomorrow. I'm inclined to believe she's telling the truth because I know her to be capable of many things, but feigning hitched breaths to near hysteria over the phone while telling such a gut-wrenching ordeal merely to weasel her way out of paltry exams is not one of them. I had to sing to help her calm down, something I haven't done in the last 4 years. I'm holding out hope that this is either stress or a recurring nightmare.
Her school is extremely strict, and there is a near-impossible chance that they would believe her enough to let her take the exams some other time. She has not been able to keep up in class or her sports practices (she has to leave for a national-level competition soon after the exams are over).
The whole ordeal is affecting not only her athletic and academic performance but also taking an emotional and mental toll on her. I haven't heard her sound so worse for wear in years. I'm frustrated I can't help her, scared of what she's going through, and want to know what I can do for her. Is there any way to help?
TL;DR my sister says she's seeing mutilated bodies covered in blood walking towards her 5 minutes into every time she's trying to fall asleep and feels like she's being watched for the past few days, how do I help her w/o being there physically for her?
Please, I am willing to do whatever it takes - worried sister
Submitted September 22, 2019 at 02:14PM by wrrdsstr https://ift.tt/2AGg6I2
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