I care about him so much and I love being with him, but I don't love being his girlfriend, and I haven't for a long time. He struggles with anxiety and refuses to seek any type of treatment. He's asocial, and I've always pictured myself hanging out with both my friends and my bf. He is emotionally immature, not saying that in attempt to undermine him, he literally does not know how to express his feelings with words. We don't talk about his feelings, my feelings, his past, our sex life, work or anything else. Just the cat, tv shows, food and shopping. When I attempt a conversation about us, it either ends in cries or screams. Then we swipe it under the rug and watch a tv show. We barely have any sex anymore, he isn't sexually expressive at all and as a result my own drive has been going down in past years. I'm needlessly cold to him. When something goes wrong at home, I blame him. He exasperates me for no reason. This has been going on for 2 years, give or take, with some ups and downs. Still, going back home to him and the cat and cooking together before watching a tv show is the best part of my day.
It's been almost 4.5 years, we have an apartment and a cat together, I know his family quite well and I love them. But objectively this needs to end and I don't know how to end it. Not only because I don't want to hurt him, but also because I selfishly still want him in my life.
TL;DR: My relationship has objectively come to an end on every aspect but I don't want to hurt my SO and can't bear the idea of not having him in my life. Has anyone gone through something similar? Any advice?
Submitted May 02, 2019 at 08:39AM by bloomandarine http://bit.ly/2VdDB7O
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