I (28/F) drunkenly told my friend (32/M) that I'm in love with him last night over voice message and now I have to face him at someone's birthday dinner tonight.

We've been friends for just under three years. I like him a lot. Love is a strong word that I would only use when wine is involved lol. But it's definitely just a crush. An on and off crush that I've never really acknowledged for more than a few seconds at a time, because I really don't think he's ever felt the same. I thought I was okay with that, but I guess because I told him how I felt last night, a small part of me wants him to know how I feel if only to move on from it.

At the end of the day it's not that deep. But I'm still really embarrassed. He listened to the voice message and then replied to me this morning asking, "Should we talk about this before or after the party tonight? Lmao."

Believe me if there were any chance that he could possibly feel the same, he would have asked me out by now. I know for a fact that he doesn't. He tells me everything, up to and including the questionable things that most people know better than to admit to anyone they could potentially like as more than a friend. Also he's not really the type to hold onto things like that. When he likes someone, he asks them out. There's no waiting involved. At least not in any of the stories that I've heard.

I don't know what to say to him. This is all very high school. Deep down I know I should be able to just face him and deal with this like an adult. I could always play it off like a joke but he's not dumb enough to believe that. Seriously don't know what I'm going to say or how I'm supposed to act around him whilst everyone else is there. If I tell him that it's nowhere near as serious as I had made it sound in the message, he's not going to believe me. Even I wouldn't believe me. When I have wine, everything becomes more dramatic and heightened and that's really all it was last night.

Talk some sense into me.

tl;dr It's really just a crush but once you drop the love word, that's the word that sticks. Not sure how I'm supposed to face him at the birthday dinner tonight. He replied this morning asking if we should talk about this before or after the party. If this were any other guy, I would face him without a care in the world, but this particular guy has always had a talent for bringing out the awkwardness that I thought I had left behind in high school.

Submitted May 04, 2019 at 07:43AM by saidtheloveword http://bit.ly/2GX9LKT