My ex(?)girlfriend (44F) and I (40F) have been dating steady for 7 months. Initially she needed space and we only saw each other during the weekends. That extended over the months to a couple of days a week and I would stay the whole time in her apartment hanging out, helping her out with her business and helping out with some of the domestic jobs. Things were going very well. She told me she was happy. We'd throw parties for friends and go out together. We fell in love after 5 months. She told me it's her best relationship to date. Then shit hit the fan. We talked about moving in together into a bigger apartment. 2 weekends ago she offered for my 3 young children to stay over, as i dont get to see them often (long story). The next day she told me it was too much for her and that she could never live with me due to them. This hurt me and I felt rejected. This past Sunday I told her we cant be together. She said we can if we live separately. I told her i wanted to end it. She said to take a break and chat again in 2 weeks. We kissed and I packed my things and left her place, both of us crying. No anger. Just tears. Pathetically ive stayed in bed back in my home continously crying and sobbing since Sunday. I'm in love with her and I want to do what I need to do in order to continue the relationship. I texted her last night asking if we could chat. She said, "no - we need time to sort out our head and hearts." Today on Facebook I noticed she is going to all the queer dances around us. Does this mean it's over? Why can't I be motivated to do anything? I feel so weak and powerless. I am a sexy and strong confident woman..but i dont feel it at the moment. I'm asking reddit for some advice. I can't afford therapy. Any suggestions would help me from spiraling deeper down into depression and more anxiety.
TL;DR Fell in love with the perfect woman but she doesn't want my kids to live with her. I left her and have had depression since.
Submitted August 29, 2018 at 12:31AM by talkingtoanangel https://ift.tt/2POqDXZ
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