After more than twenty years of friendship I (23F) realized that I'm in love with my best friend (26M) and I don't know what to do

Our moms have been friends since they were in college and we've been friends since I (23F) was old enough to play with him (26M). We are like family and these feelings don't feel right but I have them. I started having them about two or three years ago, but I never said anything because he had a girlfriend and because I thought that with time I would stop feeling that way, but that didn't happen. He broke up with his girlfriend more than a year ago and since then we've spent much more time together like vacations, short trips on weekends, sleepovers in my apartment etc, and my feelings got stronger.

I love him and there's nothing I can do to stop feeling that way. And honestly it hurts because it scares me to think that I will never love anyone the way I love him. But I feel like I can't tell him because I don't know if he feels the same way, I mean, on the last trip we took we almost kissed but he quickly apologized saying he was really drunk and didn't know what he was doing. But I know he wasn't drunk, I've known him for years and I know when he's drunk and when he's not.

So I was thinking and maybe he likes me but he won't tell me because he thinks I don't feel the same way, could that be a possibility or am I just being a ridiculous hopeless romantic? Should I tell him how I feel? And if so, how? The last thing I want is to make him uncomfortable.

Tl;dr After more than twenty years of friendship I (23F) realized that I'm in love with my best friend (26M) and I don't know what to do

Submitted March 14, 2022 at 10:10PM by bellex_ https://ift.tt/zQyGZst