My parents divorced around 4-5 years ago. Ever since that, me and my older siblings have been on a equal schedule. As of this year, I'm the only one that is under 18. Now I am in a situation and I feel trapped and miserable.
Half of my time I am happy and I enjoy myself at my moms house. The other half I feel sad and like I'm walking on eggshells. I'm stressed and I'm not myself when I'm at my dads house. My dad is constantly mad about something, whether its his job, his hip or whatever tiny thing that comes up during the day that makes him pissed off instantly.
At my moms house I have a nice room, a new dog, and my own space whenever I need it. There are always lots of people there. We have dinner together, spend lots of time together and play games and stuff. I feel like I can be myself when I'm there. I can always talk to someone about anything.
At my dads house there is rarely anybody there except him. I'm constantly on edge whenever he's home and I'm worried about when he's getting home. I never eat any meal with anybody when I'm there. I haven't had a actual conversation with my dad in months. I don't do anything with him and he doesn't care. All he does is sit on the couch on his iPad watching tv until midnight.
A few weeks ago my mom to a hockey game she was invited to and it was a day that I was supposed to be at my dads house. She needed someone to take care of our dog, so I said I would be there. I told my dad that I would leave after dinner and he lost his shit, saying how it wasn't "fair" for me to be at my moms house on his day. Instead of being with my dog I spent the night by myself in the basement doing nothing. That's only one of many stories like that.
Every few days I lie to him and say I'm going somewhere, when I'm actually going to my moms house for a few hours. I literally count down the hours until I go to my moms house. My mom has completely moved on from the divorce and has been in a serious relationship for years now, but my dad still hates even hearing my moms name.
I hate being at my dads house and I resent him. Next time something comes up I plan on telling him everything that I feel. I can't suppress my thoughts any longer and I certainly can't live through my next 3 years of my life like this.
Lastly, I've recently started playing guitar and I bring my gear back and forth between houses. Whenever I'm at my dads house I feel discouraged from even touching it and I don't want my favourite thing to be ruined. Whenever I'm at my moms house I can pick it up whenever I want and play for hours.
Please give me any advice you have. Ask any questions if you have any.
TL;DR: my parents got divorced a few years ago. I I'm miserable and sad whenever I'm at my dads house. Now I feel the need to confront by dad about everything.
Submitted April 26, 2019 at 06:20PM by ShermanTank12 http://bit.ly/2WfaNbK
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