Hello reddit.
My boyfriend and I have been together for about an year. We have had a beautiful relationship and have created some of the precious memories. I love him with all my heart and I would do everything I can to make him happy. I always thought he was the one, the moment I met him. He has made me the happiest person in the world and everything about him is great.
But. He does not like me the way I like him. He never has. He has even assured that it might never happen. In the whole year, he has only said - "I like you" about twice and that is all the words of endearment I have heard. While he says it is because he feels relationships are pointless, he has issues opening himself up to people, especially in relationships. Even in the past, he has had failed relationships because he was scared of feeling close to someone. It might sound rubbish but I have been experiencing it. When we are together, he is very loving and doting but he does not get a feeling of love and longing. Lately we have been having problems while having sex where he loses erection in the middle because suddenly the feeling drops.
He mentioned he has not been fair to me and he will be misleading me if we continue to be together. He asked me to give him a week to sort out his feelings and clear his head. He thought that it is possible he could be overthinking. But you always know when it is over, and I, for a fact, know that it is over. It is only a matter of putting it out there and ripping the bandage off.
We have been so good together. Never yelled at each other, respected each other, have shared interests, we joke a lot, we fool around so much, we experimented in bedroom. Our parents basically adore each other! But it is all over. Sometimes you cannot make someone love you back, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes it is not your fault. I was ready to put up with zero-efforts made from his side, I told he need not do anything and I will put in as much effort as I can. But it is wrong and we both know that.
I fear so much loss. I just cannot let go. I am terribly scared of having this conversation but I know I will be putting him through a lifetime of compromise if we stay together any longer. He might never break up, he might even be with me as long as I want, he promised he will always be there for me whenever I need anything. But I want more than that. I want him to be with me because he wants to.
I do not know how to pull myself together and do this. He is the best person I know but this is not good for either of us. I fear I will never meet someone like him, and he might be the one that got away.. and I dont know how to deal with that at all.
TLDR - My boyfriend is a wonder person, but we might not be the best partners and this could be a relationship based on compromises. I fear letting him go because he is so good. I need some pointers on how to pull myself together and get through it.
Submitted April 26, 2019 at 04:30AM by happycamperxo16 http://bit.ly/2UCeKFz
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