Hi, I [19F] have been dealing with a problem for quite a few months that I think is really immature and I’m really just desperate to make it go away! Can anyone talk some sense into me??
My bf [19M] and I have been together for a little over 1.5 years. A little less than a year ago, i asked him to rate my attractiveness and he said 6/10- which wasn’t great but didn’t really bother me. I’ve always liked the way I Iook but recognize everyone has preferences.
The problem is that then somehow we got to where he started listing in order of attractiveness the girls that we went to high school with. We were in a small program in high school so there were only about 30 girls and he very quickly and easily got 9 or 10 names in before I got offended and stopped him. Of course I don’t expect to be the hottest girl in the world but I was confident I would be ranked high because, well, I’m his gf. At this point it seems like he thinks basically every mildly attractive girl is better looking than me. So now the 6 rating started to get to me. When I started to like him he suddenly became very attractive to me and I just assumed I got the same boost- the gf glow up.
I don’t want this to make him look bad because when I’ve told this to anyone else they tell me to break-up with him- ultimately I asked so he was just being honest. Also I was always aware that I am not his type- he likes thick girls and I’m this tiny flat little thing.
I basically just think it’s messed up that I find myself more attractive than my bf does- when I look in the mirror and think I’m pretty I remember he doesn’t agree and I get sad.
Anyways, now I feel self conscious during sex or intimate things because I know he only thinks I’m okay looking. I also now compare myself to other girls wondering why he likes everyone else but I’m only okay. We had a conversation where I clarified that a 6 on my scale is okay and 7 is pretty/attractive and he agreed and said “yes, I think you’re cute” and I wanted to die. I also had to unfollow the girls he named because when I saw a picture of them it made me cry.
I am really just frustrated with myself for caring so much about this. Because I know he’s devoted to me, I never see him looking at other girls. He loves me and I get no shortage of compliments and affection. Just most of the time when he compliments me he says I’m cute which makes me mad again. If you cut it right down to the base of my problem I want him to think I’m at least a 7 right? What is the difference between a 6 or 7 really, like grow up. This guy already has our children’s names chosen, which weirds me out a little if I’m being honest, but is super sweet.
Anyway I would appreciate some help putting this in perspective so I can get over it. I have told him all of this and it broke his heart and he assured me he doesn’t think everyone else is hotter than me but I have trouble believing him.
Thanks everyone!
TL;DR - my bf rated me a 6, bellow lots of girls in our Hs class and now I feel self- conscious around him.
Submitted November 27, 2018 at 05:29AM by throwaway666420693 https://ift.tt/2zqvzeY
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