Question about The female nature

What i'm about to write probably will confuse some people but maybe it will give some insight.

i am a 28 year old male and i have a borderline personality disorder.

basically it means that i feel very strong and i had and still have trouble regulating my emotions (especially anger) but at the same time it gives me some advantages like creativity and developed emotional intelligence.

due to the symptoms of this illness i didn't knew it back in the day but i acted similarly to a female i had inferiority complex and a severe fear of rejection and my sense of identity is still fucked up.

last year i have managed to make drastic changes and i am on my way to recovery.

i came across the red pill theory because my struggles with my fear of abandonment and rejection and the inconsistent idea about my identity led me to seek solutions to my problem. i wanted to educate myself about the dynamics between females and males to escape abandonment and rejection.

i have a lot of psychological background and i found a connection between my behavior and the female mindset and the red pill theory.

to simplify things, i did to females without realizing it all of which they did to men.

i shit test woman without realizing it. like a reflex. i find myself attracted very much to a confident and strong woman who can lead. and i pump and dump weak females.

i learned game and tried to apply what i learned but then i realized that i did better naturally. it just that i don't always have the motivation for a woman. if i come across the right type of female then i act in ways which make her come to me.

i do hot & cold to females but it just happens this way i don't mean it. it happens when i feel that they are clingy and needy. i hate that shit. when i sense weakness in a woman in the sense that she "wants something" kind of feeling then i can be really harsh.

all of my relationships were with woman who you can consider beta but i always felt an urge to be with an alpha female.

so i dump beta woman after a while.

i have my world view change in a matter of hours sometimes because my emotional state changes.

it fucked me up so much that i used to detach from my emotions and just feel empty as fuck.

my point is, that "female nature" is not female nature it is nature of illness of a cluster B personality disorders.

psychopaths\ narcissists\ Borderlines\ Machiavellian\ sociopaths.

some guys have those same behaviors. i guess every "natural" player experience the same symptoms that you guys describe about females just the other way around. and believe me they don't really enjoy their life.

just recently after a year of therapy i feel that things getting better and better and i can feel quite normally.

by the way, the things that some people say that woman want a masculine guy it is just half of the truth..

hypergamy is basically a product of inferiority complex. if she feels inferior then she gets attracted to it, and if she feels superior to it, then she maybe wants it for all kind of advantages but she's not so eager to fuck it. it happened to me to. but this is the only thing that matters. make her feel inferior and she wants to fuck you.. sometimes they want to fuck chicks that they feel are superior to them..

i felt that chicks that are average i string along and fuck them and dump them and then they come back desperate but chicks that i felt are superior because they had this type of vibe (it doesn't have nothing to do with looks) i felt that it is hard for me to play with them. i felt that i have to just stop and cooperate. (be a good boy)

the problem is that most chicks don't understand me. they don't used to guys acting like me hh

so they get frustrated and sometimes they get enraged because i seem like a masculine dude but my behavior in the way that i carry myself WITH THEM is just like they carry themselves with men. i feel that i am the one they need to come after. it bugs the shit out of them. they want to be in this position. when the reality is that this behavior stems from fear. i don't really think that i'm that great. (it's complicated)

would glad to hear comments and thoughts.

Submitted July 28, 2018 at 02:23AM by michasv https://ift.tt/2NQXnOf