tl;dr - I am a full grown adult and I don't have best friend. It makes me feel strange.
Hello everyone!This is my first post, so please be compassionate, I'm pouring my heart into this here. I want to know if anyone has ever experienced this, but it has been bothering me for good amount of years. I'm a woman, I'm 24 currently and I don't have any best friend. I have plenty of friends, good or even great friends - I have good social life and I don't have any issues creating new relationships with people. I rarely fight with my friends, I'm never part of any "drama" let's say - If I see anybody being toxic/mean to me I simply cut them out of my life and despite the fact that I cut out a lot of people during high school period I still have substantial amount of good friends. I think I'm friendly, smart, even funny sometimes, I'm geeky but I don't force that on anyone If I see they aren't into geeky stuff.
Which is why I don't understand why I don't have any best friend. There have been few times that I almost had best friend: 1) my childhood friend who I assumed would be my BFF but she turned very cold towards me during puberty and cut out all her friends, only hanging out with her BF. 2) girl who I thought was my BFF but slowly started bullying me before I promptly cut her out. 3) one of my oldest friends who I thought was my BFF for some time before she told me about her BFF (and told me indirectly that I'm a good friend but not best).
My fiancé has a best friend and I envy him (in a good way, I'm happy for him). I guess my fiancé is my best friend but like, that's not the same thing as female friendship. I don't know if this is normal or if there is something like, IDK, wrong with me? I tried doing a lot of introspection over the years but I don't have the answer. I really, really want a BFF. Is it too late for me? I'd feel pathetic if I told anybody about this.
Submitted March 03, 2021 at 12:41AM by littlesadmostlyrad https://ift.tt/30bqKTM
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