I'm 40M, she is 35F.
In short, I was married to a wonderful woman who passed away a decade ago. She was my first proper relationship, my only sexual relationship, and was my world. We had two children, and were very happy. Her death devastated me.
A couple of years ago I decided to dip my toe back into things, and so started to use OKC, Tinder, Bumble, etc. I met some interesting people on them, including a couple I thought that had potential, but they fizzled out.
A couple of months ago I was matched with a smart, beautiful woman. We had a lot of mutual interests, and talked a lot. She went on to ask me out, and we had a fun day out. We repeated that a couple of times, and all was great.
I stayed over at her place recently for about 3 days. It was magical. We slept together for the first time, and after some initial performance anxiety, it went amazingly. I am falling for her hard, and she has said the same to me.
I'm just concerned that I'm going too fast. I can see a future with this woman (to quote Scott Pilgrim, "with jetpacks"), and she is fast becoming the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thing at night. She is wonderful, sexy, intelligent. In many ways she is a better match for me than my wife, and I've already given myself a guilt trip when I realised that.
She seems into me just as much as I'm into her. We're getting tested for STDs this week (I know, nothing says romance like that, right?) so that we can become more intimate. Waking up next to her in the morning was wonderful. When I'm not with her, I'm thinking about her.
I should not be this into someone I've known for perhaps two months, right? I tend to burn hot and heavy in relationships (my wife and I were the exact same way, so I'm sensing a pattern there). I feel like a giddy schoolboy again, but this woman has captured me, and I want to make sure I set us up for the best possible future we can have.
tl;dr: Really into a new woman after a decade of being single. Trying to make sure I don't screw things up by moving too quickly on anything.
Submitted June 02, 2019 at 04:47PM by Sparta2019 http://bit.ly/2XknEcR
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