I’m incredibly exhausted from dating. I’m a 25F and it seems I can get a man to like me, but not like me enough to commit. It’s so difficult to be beginning to fall for someone, think it’s going somewhere, and then to have the rug pulled out from under you. You’re always left wondering “what if?” because you never get a chance to see it through. I have gone through so much heart break over the years and have so many walls built up. Because of that I actually decided to take two years off of dating. Recently I jumped back into it and met a great guy. Things were going great. I told him I wanted to take things slow as I’ve been hurt many times before and that I have a lot of walls up. He understood and told me he was serious about me and that it’d be okay for me to open up. Over the next 2 months we face timed every day and spent time together frequently. He said I was the most caring person he’d ever met, he has never felt so confident about himself, it’s the best sex he’d had in years, and started talking about meeting his folks and planning trips together. Then about two weeks ago he starts expressing that he’s “unsure about everything” and “scared” and “not sure if he’s ready for a relationship and doesn't want to hurt me”. I told him I understood and that it was best if we took a step back for now and give each other space. What has ensued since is him reaching out to me (even though I told him not to) saying that he misses me and doesn’t want me to forget about him, but is still unsure. I’m at a loss for words as I can’t believe this has happened to me again. I’m sad that this is probably over, but more sad that I’m not sure when I’ll ever be able to open myself up to someone to do this again. Advice?
Tl;dr: don’t know how to move on from almost relationships that keep happening
Submitted October 31, 2021 at 05:36PM by NorCalGirl13 https://ift.tt/3mACtYc
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