Hello Reddit,
22M here. I've always had a mental block when it comes to anything more than friendship with women and I have dated only once and it didn't last long. I come from a divorced family (mom went abroad when I was 7 and divorced my dad 2 years later). I had a rough time growing up and went through and witnessed some things I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy.
I've always thought "omg I'm so glad my parents' bs didn't affect me". Oh my, I've been SOO wrong. A few months ago I got into a dysfunctional relationship that was very damaging to my self worth. Never have I ever been so insecure in myself and in such a dark place. I've put up with a lot of neglect from this girl. Not blaming her though, we were both immature and after all, I chose to put up with it so I'm trying to learn the lessons now. After the relationship ended I took a hard look at myself and what went wrong on my end. In no time all my issues were glaring in front of me. I realised I have abandonment issues, self-esteem issues, codependency and so on. I also fall in "love" after a girl gives me the slightest bit of attention. Even though I live a good life (I have friends, I socialise, I study) Deep down I'm just not okay with myself. At all.
TL;DR: I grew up in a dysfunctional family and I think I'm traumatized. I've never been in a relationship and I have issues such as insecurity and low self-esteem. As a result, I'm completely unable to form any romantic relationship with women. I'm also considering therapy at this point.
Submitted November 28, 2021 at 03:30PM by Outside_Escape_9540 https://ift.tt/3ljF1J0
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