I feel like an absolute monster for even writing something like that but it's true. My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years, we've lived together for 2 years. Very difficult 2 years.
My boyfriend is a veteran, he was medically discharged after a horrible accident. After he came back, his mental issues became a real struggle. He was diagnosed with CPTSD, a schizoaffective disorder and an eating disorder amongst other things. He had a suicide attempt before. I did everything I could to help him. I spent all my money on his therapy, meds, rehab, things that I thought would bring him joy. But I think he was in such a bad place that he turned to unhealthy coping mechanisms anyway. We're talking heroin. And alcohol. I sort of blame myself for it cause I had to leave him for a few months for work reasons. I shouldn't have.
But now I'm still considering leaving him for good. it's just too much for me. I'm helpless. And so fucking exhausted and scared. And broke. Soon I won't be much help to him anymore. But he's obviously in a place where he wouldn't handle a break up very well. I don't want to have his blood on my hands.
TL;DR My boyfriend is an addict and a person with severe mental health problems, I love him but I'm at my limit and I want to separate myself from him without making him too miserable.
Submitted November 29, 2021 at 02:43AM by shaerraweddpalace https://ift.tt/316n5KG
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