I [20F] have been offered a summer job in another state, but my boyfriend [20M] would miss me too much

I’ve recently become CNA certified in my state and was planning to work as one over the summer in the town I go to college in, which is where I met my boyfriend. However, my aunt, who lives halfway across the country, has offered me a job. Her husband is a doctor with his own practice, and they want me to come work there for the summer. It would pay more than what I would make here, and they’d be a lot more flexible and I think I’d enjoy it more at their facility. Everyone thinks it’s a great opportunity and I should do it. I feel inclined to as well, since I’ve always wanted to spend the summer out there and do something like that.

The issue lies with my boyfriend. I love him so much, and we’ve been dating for a year and a half. COVID lockdown hit us very hard because I had to go back to my hometown (in the same state as college, just far away) and I couldn’t see him for months. I only saw him once in the middle of it all. I didn’t enjoy being separated, but I was able to get on fine without him. However, he was miserable most of the time, which was sad. After we reunited for college, I said that I would never be separated from him for that length of time again. I mean, I expected that I would be working in this city through summer. The only thing I’d predicted for me being away from him were the occasional family visits.

This job opportunity, however, does directly mean I would be spending another great deal of time away from him, even though I said I wouldn’t spend that much time away from him again. Like I said, he did not handle the COVID lockdown well so he has trouble being away from me. He says he can’t even sleep well without me anymore. I feel bad cause I know if I accept this opportunity, he would be heartbroken. He would think that I willingly would rather spend time away from him than be with him. My aunt said that he’d be allowed to visit, but he still would be upset (and he doesn’t like to fly alone). He would probably think that I don’t love him anymore or that I don’t value our relationship, which of course isn’t true.

It’s not like I want to do this job because I want to be away from him... I just think it’s a great opportunity that I won’t have any other chance to do. Next summer I have nursing school, and after that I’ll be actually starting to work as an RN. However, this opportunity does kind of defeat the purpose of me being certified in my state, since it’s difficult for a CNA to work while doing college classes.

I just don’t know what to do. And I haven’t told him yet either. I think I have to make a decision soon. I think deep down I want to go, but it also pains me to have to be away from him. Of course I would really miss him, but I know he’d have a really hard time handling being away from me. I feel like a bad person for thinking that I’d rather be away from someone I love to take this job.

TLDR: I’ve been offered a job in another state which I think is a great opportunity to take, but my boyfriend doesn’t handle being away from me very well. Besides, after COVID lockdown, I already told him I didn’t want to be away from him for months long again. I feel like I’m betraying him and breaking his heart by wanting to go.

Submitted March 03, 2021 at 05:11PM by mythrowawaydump https://ift.tt/3rfsV4D