I would like to start off by saying I had been celibate for 4 years before this happened after a very messy break up from an extremely abusive relationship. I met said guy through a mutual friend who is a very good friend of both of ours. It did not start off as matchmaking or anything. His car had broken down and he was stranded while I was hanging out with my friend who asked if we could give him a ride.
He seemed really nice and funny. We joked around a lot. We started all three hanging out and doing more things together. He got my number from our friend and started sending really flirty and sweet messages. I started to let my guard down and he was aware of the situation I had been in as my friend had told him.
He would call or text me a lot and was always sweet and made me feel good about myself. Saturday he had just gotten a new place and asked if I wanted to come over for a while. I went and after a few hours of talking and laughing he kissed me and then we ended up having sex. He was saying really romantic things. I don't want to say I fell in love with him or anything but I did develop some more intense feelings. I realize this is partly because I had been celibate for so long and intimacy is a big thing for me. When I left he walked me to my car and kissed me again. Texted me to make sure I made it home safely and say goodnight.
I did not hear from him the next day. I ran into him by accident the day after with our other friend. I did not mention anything about this to our mutual friend. He not only wouldn't look at me but was extremely cold. I was trying to be optimistic thinking he may be having a bad day. I wasn't trying to force anyone into a relationship and I know I didn't give off clingy vibes, mainly because I'm too afraid to. Hours later he sends me a text that is confusing stating that I'm amazing and he doesn't want me to feel like he was using me, that I'm lovely and delicate and have a big heart that he respects and cares for. Wishes me a good night.
He has not said a word to me since. I have seen him twice and he completely ignores me. I'm really hurt and I don't understand. Our mutual friend today told me that I came up in conversation and he asked the guy if he had heard from me and he said "she's probably mad at me." Gave no further detail.
I am mad. I'm pissed off. I feel used after swearing I'd never let anyone treat me badly again. I didn't anticipate sleeping with him. I understand if someone doesn't want to be in a relationship but I never asked for one. It's so disrespectful. Why do people do this? How hard is it to make a call or write out a freaking I'm sorry I'm not interested text?
I feel like something is wrong with me. Self esteem crushed again.
Tl;dr I was led on by the sweet words of someone after being off the dating scene for years, slept with him and after seeing him in person twice with a mutual friend he doesn't want to speak with me or even look at me. I understand he got what he wanted and that's it. How do I not hurt so badly? I feel like something is wrong with me and I'm just unlovable.
Submitted June 30, 2022 at 01:45AM by FashyQueen https://ift.tt/YkxSpVy
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