So I just want to say right away that I LOVE my baby sister, I really do. She's 4 months old now and she's really cute and I love holding her and talking to her.
Her mom is my step mom, my dad married Jeannie about 2 years ago. I like her a lot and he asked me what I thought about it before he proposed. I helped pick her engagement ring and I was her maid of honor. I was 13 and it was really cool and fun to be in the wedding. So just to clarify I really love my family.
But, since my baby sister was born I am having a hard time not being jealous. My dad keeps forgetting things about me. Like he forgot to pick me up from swimming for 2 weeks in a row - said he thought my bio mom was getting me. Which he knows is bull crap because she NEVER shows. Half the time she never even shows to pick me up on her weekends with me. And now he doesn't either even though he's my full time house. He also no showed to my first competition of the year. He never even apologized and said he was just tired. He didn't even care to look at my medal when I tried to show him.
My Dad PROMISED when I was little that he would never forget me anywhere or not show up because of how often my mom does that to me. And now that's over.
He NEVER used to be grumpy with me and 2 times now he has snapped at me. Once when I reminded him about my May swimming competitions and once when I asked him for like the 3rd time when we were going to go to a movie he keeps promising we will see. When I told him the baby is taking all his time now he rolled his eyes and told me not to start blaming the baby for my problems. I'm not trying to.
I also am feeling like my step mom views me as less her daughter now that she has her own real daughter. Even typing it makes me cry a little.
I know the baby makes things more work for them and I'm trying not to be jealous of her but I feel like sometimes he does have time for me and chooses not to spend it with me.
I'm really scared baby is going to replace me and become his favourite. He always has called me Pumpkin Penny because my nickname is Penny, and he started calling the baby Pumpkin Polly. It feels like nothing is really mine and his anymore. I know I won't be the only child anymore and I want to share their time but it feels like literally nothing in my life matters to them anymore.
I'm not sure how to talk to him without sounding like a brat. I'm really trying not to be. Advice?
TL;DR I'm feeling pushed aside by my new sister and I don't know how to tell me dad without sounding like a brat because I don't think I'm asking for too much.
Submitted March 03, 2021 at 12:56PM by xbsi196 https://ift.tt/3sH3GIA
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