Hi, thanks for reading if you do.
My husband has a mental disability and doesn't work, drive, or leave the house too much unless it's with me. He doesn't have any source of income and mostly sleeps and plays video games. We've been together about 4 years. He does the dishes every day and makes sure the pets have food and water, but I'm still trying to get him to do other things like maybe vacuuming, laundry, and showering regularly.
I've been pretty busy the last couple of years - I'm finishing up a degree soon, I just bought a house, and I just started my dream job. As a full time student and full time employee, I get kind of stressed out sometimes. I'm also responsible for any shopping, cleaning, house stuff, bills, etc.
I don't mind being the one to do all of these things usually. My husband is a really sweet guy and is usually pretty affectionate.
My issue is that every couple of months or so I get sucked into this pit of resentment and I just HATE that about myself. Like I'll just start thinking about all of the things I can't have or do because of him and I get sad or angry. For example, I've always really wanted a dog. The house we've got would be perfect for a dog, it's got an extra large yard that's fenced. He doesn't like dogs (due to his disorder) but it really didn't come up until about 6 months ago. So that's out, which is okay because it's not a "need" or anything, just....it makes me sad, y'know?
We can't really go out with friends because of his social anxiety. I can't go out without him because he will worry and panic a bit - he's alright while I'm at work usually, but anything more than that makes him uncomfortable. Besides that, he sleeps during the day and is awake at night, which is the opposite of my hours.
I'm usually very patient and kind, and even when I find myself feeling this way during these periods I don't take it out on him. I just wish I didn't feel this way. It makes me feel so evil.
Is there something I can do to prevent this??
TL;DR: I get severe caregiver burnout taking care of my husband and I hate it. What can I do to stop/prevent it?
Submitted February 08, 2020 at 04:35PM by Delicious-Sail https://ift.tt/37adWOs
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