I've been dating my girlfriend for 3 years - by far the longest relationship we've both been in. I was so in love in the beginning. We both were. She has been a rock for me and is just such a fantastic person. We would always talk about how lucky we are to have one another, and after around the year mark I definitely thought she was finally the one - our mutual love seemed very equal and I'd never had it last so long.
We've been living together for around 6 months now, we even adopted a dog together. We've talked about spending our lives together but don't want to rush into marriage or anything. We are content taking things slow.
Lately over the past few months, I've just felt like something has changed inside of me. I've been thinking a lot about spending forever with her and I just keep having doubts that I'll be happy. I've caught myself being less open to physical displays of affection and have even looked forward to her leaving to go see her friends and family at times so I can be alone. I have always been an introvert so maybe I just need time to recharge. It just doesn't feel healthy.
I'm absolutely terrified of this feeling. I've done nothing to follow up on it. I've been dreading even making a post here because typing it out makes this feeling so much more real rather than just some deep buried thought. I keep telling myself it's just the honeymoon phase ending and it'll pass and we will fall into a routine, etc. But that's what scares me the most. I think maybe the thought of settling down and having a routine is all part of it. I'm really not sure. Maybe I'm being super immature and selfish about this and just need to grow up.
I do still love her. She's absolutely my best friend. My biggest worry with all of this is how she would take it and move on. I know she's still very much in love with me and this would absolutely shatter her world. Just the thought is painful.
Open to any advice
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**TL;DR;** : I think I'm falling out of love with my long term girlfriend. Am I being selfish by destroying the life we've created or should I break up with her based on these new feelings.
Submitted February 07, 2020 at 12:11PM by Throwaway0202134 https://ift.tt/2w2ZHyf
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