I met her (lets call her Carrie) about a year and a half ago through friends and we became really close. At the time, she was about two months into her transition. We talk almost daily and she's really the first person I go to when something good or bad happens in my life.
I'm straight, never dated a girl before (she knows that) but since a couple of months ago, Carrie started being flirty and I reciprocated, I started feeling things for her before that and tried to hide it , but around this time I really started to see her that way and started getting butterflies every time we talked. Yesterday she came to my place and we ended up kissing and it may sound stupid, but it was one of the most passionate, heartfelt kisses I ever had. We talked afterwards, and to make it she pretty much told me she really liked me and wanted to be with me. I told her I was a bit confused and needed to think about it.
This is probably the part where I'm sure I'll sound insensitive and wrong, and I'm very sorry, but I don't know how else to put it, but the thing is that I feel like as much as I see her as a woman, I'm not sure if my physical attraction to her matches. To clarify, she hasn't had any surgery yet (is savinging for that) and dresses in a very alternative style that makes people think she's just a male being edgy and wearing makeup or whatever.
On one part, my feelings are very much real and for who she is, but I don't know if I would still fell physically attracted to her after surgery and I don't think that's fair to her.
I tried talking to a friend and she told me I should stop talking to Carrie, because me having feelings for her, means I see her as a man, and that's going to hurt her transition. This was hurtful, but maybe she's right? I'm very confused right now.
My sister told me to talk to Carrie about it and see if she wants to go for it, but I don't even know what I would tell her, except that whatever we end up doing, I don't want to lose her as a friend.
I really don't know what to do or how to even approach the whole situation so I came here to seek advice.
What would be the best thing to do?
(Edit: I fucked up the title in the last post and put ftm instead of mtf, reposted because I figure giving the situation, it would make it very confusing)
Tl;Dr: I'm fell in love with my mtf trans friend, she asked me to be with her. I never felt this way for a woman before, so I don't know if it would be harmful to her or our friendship to do so.
Submitted February 06, 2020 at 01:32AM by 333throw1away333 https://ift.tt/39etLoU
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