I’m [22F] probably going to have to come out soon, but my parents are conservative Indians. I’m terrified.

I’m starting to look into med school applications and the marriage talk is getting stronger. Recently my mom asked me if I would be interested in getting a family friend’s (barely know him) phone number and keeps telling me he’s so nice and successful. Little do they know that I’m not only gay, but in a serious relationship that’s very explicitly headed for marriage.

I don’t think they’ve ever even considered that I could be a lesbian. I wear makeup, dress well, and am considered relatively pretty, so I think they just never thought I checked off the stereotypes. Additionally our caste is very high and directly linked to a royal family. Meanwhile, I’m going to be bringing a white female veteran and college student home. I’m terrified.

For a brief moment I felt myself think, “maybe if I really try I can get used to sleeping with him.” I have never been that great about not being homophobic towards myself, and a lot of times I wished I was different. If only I didn’t feel numb at the idea, maybe I would still have a family next year. I think what if for some reason and my gf isn’t there one day either, I’ll really be alone.

They’ve met my girlfriend before, but they’re under the impression that we’re friends. Even at times when they thought I was hiding a relationship they assumed it was a boy. I think they’ve mentally prepared to see me with a white boy because of this, but in reality it’s a white girl... we plan to tell them together in a few months and I’m just scared. I don’t know if there’s something I should be doing in the meantime...

Has anyone been in this situation, or have any advice? What can I do to make it less likely that they’ll react really badly? ):

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TL;DR; I’m an Indian girl from a conservative family. I’m gay and in the closet, and they don’t suspect it at all - but in a few months they’re going to get the news. What can I do to make this go less badly?

Submitted August 27, 2019 at 02:00AM by PM-ME-UR-SPAGHETTI https://ift.tt/2MFLT3w