We had a really good relationship. It was my best relationship. We were best friends, never argued, helped each other grow. Once lockdown started I notice his mood decline. He became distant and withdrawn. Work was stressing him out, he spent all day in his office. Our bedroom became dead. He stopped iniaiting intimacy. He was always physically affectionate with me (holding hands, cuddles etc) but that stopped too. I bought it up to try and fix things. We agreed that lockdown was stressful for everyone and this moment will pass.
Yesterday he planned a great day for us to help us get out of the rut. I came downstairs in such a good mood excited for our date and he was sitting there with a look on his face that i've never seen before. He ended it. He doesn't think it can be recovered. Doesn't want to even try. Adult relationships need work but I guess it was not worth the effort.
Still in shock, I went back to my parents house and have spent the night here. I haven't been here for 20 hours and I already can't stand it. The comfort of being at home home, away from my ex and getting emotional support has quickly fizzled out. My parents argue, my dad urinates all over the bathroom. I can't move back in with my parents for the longterm but i'm at a loss of what to do.
Again its still early days. I just want to vent. We resigned a lease with our landlord in July so we need to have those difficult conversations. I'm hurt. I've been going through hourly cycles or crying my eyes out to feelings empowered (?) and hopeful for the future.
I will need to go back to the house i rent with my ex at some point but we need a couple of days a part. I have only packed a small bag. The house we rented was my dream house, affordable and in an amazing area. My parents house is cramped, cluttered and in a not so nice area.
I don't know. I just need advice on how to navigate this break up and living situation.
Edit: When i say "never argued", I meant we never screamed at each other or disrespected each other. Of course we disagreed. Sometimes our disagreements got a bit passsionate but we always talked it out and were solutation focussed..
TL:DR - Broke up with BF I was living with. Temporarily moved home for a couple days to process. Just renewed lease for a year and do not want to give up rental.
Submitted August 03, 2020 at 03:38AM by phelgmdounuts https://ift.tt/3gpxoMK
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