My husband (33M) and I(31F) have been together for 12 years, married for 3. We have 2 children together (2 years and 3 months).
When I was pregnant with our first, the doctors discovered the baby was missing a part of its brain and they gave us the option to terminate the pregnancy. Neither my husband nor I could consider terminating and now our first just turned 2 and we couldn’t be happier with our decision.
Shortly after I had our first, I was diagnosed with ppd (likely because of what I went through during my pregnancy) and was put on medication and went to a therapist weekly as well as group counselling. Shortly after our child’s first birthday, I became pregnant with our second (planned pregnancy as we wanted our kids close together). My doctor wanted me to stay on my medication however there were studies of that medication possibly affecting the baby so I decided to quit it as I couldn’t handle another pregnancy with issues.
During this pregnancy, my dad passed away unexpectedly and Covid happened so I felt quite alone. I’m now 3 months pp and have again been diagnosed with depression and started medication a couple of weeks ago.
My husband has been absolutely amazing and supportive this entire time. He’s so helpful with the kids, watches them so I can sleep, and puts up with my attitude.
I feel like I’m a horrible mother and wife as I’m constantly getting angry with my family, snapping at them for no reason and being upset with my husband for things that happened 10+ years ago.
My husband just told me today that he feels he isn’t being treated as an equal in our marriage, I’m not validating his feelings/emotions and he hates coming home from work because he doesn’t know what kind of mood I’m going to be in. I don’t want to lose my husband, he’s my everything, and I don’t want to make him unhappy. We’ve talked about going through marriage counselling and I’m going to try to pay more attention to him, ask about his day all the time, be more patient and try not to let my depression affect my mood.
I’m just wondering if there’s anything else I should be doing in this situation? Should I be going back to individual counselling? The group counselling I was in previously is not being offered right now due to covid. Any other ideas?
TL;DR - I have ppd and started taking medication a couple of weeks ago. My husband is hurt by the way I’m treating him and we’ve talked about marriage counselling. What else can I do?
Submitted August 26, 2020 at 01:24PM by jellybelly321 https://ift.tt/2D1bu3Q
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