A couple weeks ago, my best friend (after getting quite intoxicated) confessed her pretty serious feelings for me. She ended up video chatting me and claimed I was the “love of her life” and that she had “never felt this way about anyone before.” She was crying through all of this, the alcohol probably was a bit overwhelming. She went on and on essentially revealing this intense “love” (I would go further into detail, but it would seem like I was bolstering my ego too much).
I have had feelings for her for quite a while and let her know back in January. She received the news of my feelings well, but we both agreed that we wanted to just finish school and if anything comes of this later, we’ll come back to it.
So you can imagine how elated I was hearing someone so enthusiastically speaking about me, especially someone I was really into. I was filled to the brim with excitement as one of the best people I knew had feelings for me too! I had always imagined she probably had these feelings, but never had the idea confirmed.
Then, eight hours later, the proposed cute little bow unraveled and now I have fallen into a pretty deep depression (still taking my meds!) and am having trouble sleeping. The next morning, she texts me and says she’s extremely embarrassed due to what had happened the night prior. I tried to comfort her. She instead replies with the world smashing revelation that she is a homosexual. Now, she had previously made it clear she was bi, and that lined up with everything she was saying the night prior. However, this new position completely invalidated what she said the night prior.
Can you imagine my shock? Someone goes from being upset that they wouldn’t be your “first time” to not attracted to your sex/gender at all. I’m not a fan of rollercoasters in the first place, much less emotional ones.
I confronted her about the contrasts and she just essentially said she “loved me as a friend.” All of this confusion has left me feeling extremely down and despite being surrounded by family, I feel completely alone.
I have since cut communication with her to give her time to work through things (as she requested) and I worry for the health of our friendship (and my own mental health).
She said that she needed some time to herself alone, and has since posted all over social media that she is bored and in need of people to talk to. That of all things has really broken me down.
TlDR; The girl I love confessed her love for me, then said she is gay eight hours later. We’ve stopped talking and I feel like a shell of the person I used to be.
Edit: Grammatical Errors (should be fixed now)
Submitted June 05, 2020 at 12:32PM by patchgames https://ift.tt/2AKpayR
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