We've been together for three years and up until three months ago, I was happy. It wasn't until we got engaged that I started experiencing heightened anxiety, vision problems, and dissociation. And it hasn't left since. I stayed with my in-laws on and off these past few months and 80% of these physical symptoms went away. I felt safe in their home, but I don't feel safe in my own. I would wake up at their house and have an appetite whereas here I wake up and either feel nauseous because I have to trudge through another day, or the thought of eating gives me anxiety. At their house I was open and willing to go places whereas I worry if I go somewhere with my husband I'll either pass out from the dissociation or something else.
If it helps, he's gone all day at work and the weather is terrible. I don't have friends, a car, or a job because I'm waiting on my sponsorship to come through. In the meantime I wish I could just live with his parents 4 hours away. I know it's not possible, but I hate being here. What is the solution?
TLDR: Emotionally I love my husband but physically I'm more stressed than ever. I feel safer around his parents. What do I do?
Submitted February 24, 2019 at 04:39AM by Sunshine-Fox https://ift.tt/2UdbVv6
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