I (19F) just don’t find my (22M) boyfriend of 3 months attractive. When I first met my boyfriend I didn’t think anything of his appearance, he wasn’t super or ugly or anything but I just wasn’t attracted to him. But getting to know him was like finding a long lost bestfriend and he asked my to be his girlfriend and I agreed because we had so much in common and I have never felt so close to a boy before.
However, I just was never that attracted to him from the start, much less than previous boyfriends. Lately, I find myself seeing other people’s boyfriends on tiktok or other social media and wishing my boyfriend was as cute as them. I feel extremely shallow and terrible about this.
As someone with ocd I tend to obsess over things, and this situation has become very anxiety producing for me. I’ve even sometimes imagined previous boyfriends during sex. I’m so ashamed of myself and don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break off a relationship with someone I connect with so much but I sometimes feel like I miss that intense physical attraction to someone.
I’m really conflicted. I’ve never felt like this before so I’m just really sad and mad at myself. Should I break up with him or try to get past this? Any advice or experience on this would be appreciated :)
TL;DR: I 19f am not attracted to my 22m bf but I love the rest of our relationship. Should I stay?
Submitted January 23, 2021 at 08:24PM by internetrandomw https://ift.tt/3iF7x5r
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