My (34f) boyfriend (40m) admitted that his ideal woman is the physical opposite of me. I'm unsure how to feel.

We've been together 2 1/2 years. I'm pretty straight-up-and-down with small breasts. My boyfriend has made some comments over our time together that made me realize he prefers curves.

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Then last year when we got into a fight, he totally lost his cool at one point and told me that he's never been attracted to flat-chested women. I was really shocked and hurt that he'd say that, even in the middle of a fight. For the record I'm a strong A cup LOL. Anyway, it just hurt. And we talked about it later and he said he is attracted to me.

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A few months ago when he was mad at me he called me shapeless (or something along those lines). Again I was really shocked. Again he apologized and said he didn't mean it. He's made comments about my tops not being flattering, etc.

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Recently we were discussing something (which led to other discussions and we ended up talking about physical attributes). He admitted that his ideal woman is really curvy with big breasts and butt and a small waist. He also said "not just curvy, but really curvy". I also know he always watches porn with these types of women. And I realize all his past ex's were exactly this type. He also admitted I'm the only woman he's ever been with who is "flat chested" and he doesn't mind because he likes other things about me. But that yes, if he's being honest he prefers curves in a sexual partner. I got a bit upset and he said he was confused...he asked me if I wanted him to lie to me. He said I have to at least admit to myself I'm flat chested and of course he's not going to lie about it.

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I just....don't know how to feel. I feel weird. I feel like he's basically admitting he's not that sexually attracted to me (because believe me, I have no curves anywhere). I understand people having "types". I don't know why exactly this is difficult for me to process. Maybe because I'm pretty much the exact opposite of his type. And somehow him telling me he's not with me for my body is upsetting.

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Am I being immature here? How am I supposed to process this information? I kind of don't even want to have sex anymore now.

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tldr: bf admitted his ideal body on a woman is completely opposite of mine.

Submitted August 01, 2020 at 09:26PM by Perfect_Outcome_3062 https://ift.tt/33iKYgY