Hello,
As i'm writing this post it really feels like this was a bad idea from the start, my parents have a goddaughter that haven't talked to in about 16 years, but she moved away from her city to go to college and eventually crashed at my place, you guess what will happen.
We got along pretty well and messaged each other for hours, for weeks having several intimate moments but not like kissing, just cuddling and hand holding while listening to music and chatting till early morning such as 3 am. I didn't think much of it, she's really friendly and i didn't wanna make her uncomfortable in case she was just being a cool person.
Fast forward to last night, we drank a bit not really much nowhere the point of being drunk (which would've helped me probably) and were in the balcony singing, dancing and smoking, pretty much having a good time, nothing different than we'd had done before but i noticed she was being a bit frisky so i played along, i'm talking the usual she leans on me, has her hand on my leg while mine is above hers, being super touchy, it was pretty much like we're dating if i saw us from the outside, what i'm saying is she had intentions.
We went to see a movie by the couch and things got a bit heavier, more like grinding and she's pretty much all over me leaning and it's an awesome night, i try to kiss but she turns a bit but not completely so i kinda tease and kiss the lips on the edge and she laughs, and squeezes me tighter, after a while it happens again.
So at this moment i'm pretty lost, like is she teasing me or is she not really interested because i'm really done with playing games, all these past days were really non platonic stuff so i say to her, i really want to kiss you and she replies, "i really want to kiss you too", i have a brief smile, and then she says this, " it's just it feels really weird because your parents are my godparents". shit , fuck . She's a bit of a different girl, she studies a lot but mostly "lives in the moment", smokes a bit does a lot of spontaneous stuff, i asked her why would she tease all that much if she had no intentions of anything happening, she pretty much said that i was just having fun with you along and just living the moment with me, it's something that she wanted too, but now that it was gonna happen she couldn't overlook it, so we talked a bit more about the situation, i said if it would happen something, like is there 0% of anything happening and she said of course not, she felt somewhat attracted to me and loved to hang out with me, we finished watching a series episode and i suggested we should just go to bed and i guess try not to make it awkward, i even told her genetically we're no where near of sharing the same blood but i see her point i suppose...so much for her living in the moment there i guess.
I said i was a total idiot and i felt bad, she supported me and said i really wasn't and she also wanted something to happen, it's just she had last second regrets, i took so long to make the move because i wanted 100% to make sure she was comfortable, she lives in my house and i don't want to push boundaries and she agreed, and was kinda into it as well.
This is without a doubt the weirdest situation I've been in, i know what you are gonna say, my parents are her godparents and we live together, it really was doomed from the start or that i'm a creep or something, i really am not and i never planned this to happen it just kinda went there and we had fun so i gave it a chance.
We usually talk every day, every hour so i'm afraid how this next week will go, we're probably not gonna talk or be remotely close as we use to be it felt good living with someone you had good fun, you could always count on them for a hug, but now it's gonna be really awkward, i'm gonna miss the "relationship" we had.
Can anyone provide me some thoughts on how should i proceed this next week?
(Also there is a chance soon she leaves the house but she told me weeks ago because she's not paying anything because it's my parents house after all and she feels bad she lives there rent free and her parents are eventually gonna find a place for her.)
**TLDR** ; me and roommate had an intimate night that suddenly stopped because my parents are her godparents, how do i live with the awkwardness next few weeks
Submitted October 26, 2019 at 03:55AM by throwaway1224104 https://ift.tt/2NdBx8Z
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