This is a throwaway account because he knows my reddit.
As the title suggests, my boyfriend of 3 years will be coming home from a month long work trip in a few hours and I plan on breaking the news to him once I see him. I feel so fucked up. I was his everything, literally his source of happiness (definitely not a good thing at all), so I feel like I'm robbing him of his vitality (pardon the narcissism). He had literally nothing else in his life that he put effort into other than me and our dog. I feel such an immense guilt to the point that I actually wanted to break up with him 2 different times but couldn't bring myself to take away everything that made him happy. He would want 100% of any free time I had, so this month away from him felt like being in 115 degree weather then walking into an air conditioned building and being handed an ice cold water bottle lol. It was refreshing, to say the least.
Problem is I have this enormous ball of guilt lingering in my heart and throat. I no longer feel love or endearment towards him, but I do feel like I have an obligation to be with him because otherwise he's going to suffer. This is also my first serious/longest relationship I've ever had, so that makes it just a bit more hard. I made this thread to ask people who have been in my position, to share your story. It makes me feel better when I can read peoples' stories that are similar to mine. I appreciate you guys taking the time to read my atypical post, and possibly posting a story of your own.
Wish me luck (-:
TL;DR I've been in an unhappy and tedious 3 year long relationship that I am finally brave enough to break off. He's coming home in a few hours from a month long work trip and that's when I'll break it to him. Wish me luck! I'd also love to hear your own breakup stories that may or may not be similar to mine!
Edit: EVERYONE! Thank you SO SO MUCH for these words of encouragement, it truly did me wonders. I went into it strong and I came out strong.. until I reached my doorstep, lol. This was such a positive experience for me, to post this on here and receive so much support from individuals who went through the same thing. Truly, it made my break up easier. I can't put into words how appreciative I am for you guys taking your time out of your day to console a chump like me, lol. I want to reply to everyone so so bad, I've read every single one! But unfortunately I've cried so much that my eyelids can no longer support themselves and I have no choice but to fall asleep.. lol. Again, thank you everyone so much. It helped me a lot more than any of you realize.
Submitted February 02, 2019 at 02:27PM by throwawaymybf710 http://bit.ly/2MMqxyV
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